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Had an odd dream last night, there are these little handheld slot machine things, but each of the slot windows shows a number of blue and yellow beads, and every time you spin you see a different combo of yellow and blue in each window. Somehow there's a contest with the manufacturer of these - like if it shows up ALL blue or whatever, you win a billion dollars, but I realize that it's a little rigged, like whether or not a unit can display a win is going to be pre-determined at the factory (then I think of a scheme for checking on the win potential via serial number)

Dreams are weird, especially in terms of "plural selfs" or "parts" type thinking. For a long time I theorized that it was just the interpretive part of our minds making sense of "random noise", but it's probably not as simple as that. Still, there is a hint of, say, praising a 3-year olds finger painting and figuring out what they are actually claiming to have painted, as the various mind parts try to make sense of some very odd situations - though of course skepticism so often is just plain suspended.

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Guys have underestimated me my entire life and for years I never understood why – it used to really bother me. But then one day I was driving my little boy to school and I saw a quote by Walt Whitman, it was painted on the wall and it said, 'Be curious, not judgmental.' I like that. [...] So I get back in my car and I'm driving to work and all of the sudden it hits me – all them fellas that used to belittle me, not a single one of them was curious. You know, they thought they had everything figured out so they judged everything and they judged everyone.

(I got curious and checked, it's not actually a Whitman quote. Still an excellent sentiment. Judgement, especially judgement backed with emotion, can be so pointless, and blocks discernment. Yeah, somethings ARE worth judging, and providing power for fights worth having, but so many aren't. Hardly anything is bad-bad; it's just good for something you don't like, so be curious about that.)

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Wow! I like your temporary tattoos! Temporary in that one day you'll die.