2024.10.22
(the slogan came to mind as i think about trying to act with a bit more verve in a fake it til you make it kind of way)
Sometimes my behavior feels like a flinch response (or I guess more accurately, the flight part of fight-or-flight) where when the least little stumbling block occurs - or its just time for the next step - and I have to at least stand up and maybe walk around. I think of the old (asshole-ish) kids' routine "two for flinching" where you mime going to hit someone and if they flinch you get to give them two punches. Which is... pretty inane? (But it reminds me of the line, false attributed to Churchill:
One ought never to turn one's back on threatened danger and try to run away from it. If you do that you will double the danger. But if you meet it promptly and without flinching you will reduce the danger by half.Like I said - two for flinching. Maybe half for standing up to it (though ironically is I'm trying not to stand, and just sit there and plow through, keyboard under by fingers))
No pressure. We're all going to be dead soon, and it really doesn't matter anymore. So there's zero pressure. You're either going to win or you're not. And when you win, you try to forget about it a week later, and when you lose, you try to forget about it a forget about it a week later. And so it's not pressure, it's an opportunity.