April 26, 2006
It hits me that I'm generally overdue for deciding about how I feel about having kids. Historically, my thinking has been that having kids is this weirdly cosmic thing that you can't really grok 'til it happens to you, and that's what possibly made it worth the price of admission of your old life, your old life with its relative abundance of free time and free cash. This was countered by my general sense of anxiety, worried about being so completely responsible for another being, and also uncertainty about the World As We Know It continuing on its merry way.

Lately, though, as the generation just ahead of me begins to have major issues with aging parents, I'm begining to wonder if kids are becoming de facto retirement policies (especially given uncertainties with Social Security and what not.) I've heard so many stories about families dealing with older members who are experiencing alzheimers and other conditions that I wonder what's happening to the old folks who don't have that kind of support system, and what the odds are that I'll end up one of them if I stay on my current course...


Quote of the Moment
The way to have good ideas is to have lots of ideas.
Linus Pauling
Pauling is the discoverer of how atoms bond with other atoms, later known for his peace activism, and they say second only to Einstein in terms of scientist public recognition... (I would say his fame has not been as long lasting though)

I'm reading Alan "Einstein's Dreams" Lightman's "The Discoveries". The author was supposed to be at my last United Universalist Science and Spirituality discussion group meeting, but couldn't make it at the last minute.

Video of the Moment
I kisrael'd some of Paul Robertsons art, which turns out was all prep work for this most amazing Video Game that never was, Pirate Baby's Cabana Battle Street Fight 2006. 112 megs, but so worth it for anyone who has ever played that old "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" Arcade game.