2025.06.15
Happy Fathers Day to those who celebrate!
I had a new introspective thought yesterday- it doesn't have the vibe of "oh my gosh this explains everything" but it seems like it might be a valid piece. I lost my dad when I was 14 after me and my mom being there for him through a year or two of debilitation. (Which is obviously kinda traumatic, though sometimes I think back to how some evaluation I had done around second grade noted I was more attached to my mom than my dad.)
But now for the first time I wonder, did witnessing that reshape my landscape about my own potential for fatherhood, and explain why something like Uncle-hood works so much better for me? Like somehow I either took in "dads get sick and die" or maybe "dads aren't necessary".
I dunno. Maybe it's a just a Just-So story. But I wonder.