| KHftCEA 1999-10.2 October |
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KHftCEA 1999-10.2 October
Visited Rebekah today (finally) in her new house. Now I feel like I'm in a bit of a funk and I'm not sure why. Because she has a spacious house? Looking over the mix tapes I've made her? Her friend coming over for the second half of the visit? The usual bitterswetness of her finding happiness with D? (His picture on her desk.) A phonecall after with my Aunt, where she said she was relieved that I've "determined" Y2K won't be a major lifesyle change? A note from my mom where she wants more "musings" from me? A funk about work? (I took a halfday today.) Noticing that I'm only going to be able to do a finite number of Digests? (I published today) I dunno. Rebekah looked heavier. She was a little under the weather, and I'm wearing sourgrape lenses, but I'm happy to see my view of her changing. Speaking of that: looking for imperfections in female physique, to reassure myself of Mo's attractiveness to the outside world, has actually led to me seeing how pretty so many women are- even the ones who aren't Marnie shaped. Rebekah grooved on FiveJive, amusingly. I want to put my archive on a new site- may go for kisrael.com soon. 99-10-4 --- Standing at Porter, waiting for my coffee to cool, listening to a great ethnic accordian player. What an underrated instrument! Unlike the tuba, which pretty doesn't do that much beyond it's reputation, this instrument is capable of real expression, the melody of a piano combined with the moods of a wind. 99-10-5 --- Happiness is a small and lovely achievement. --Mr. Blue --- On the flight to Minnesota- is it really -42F at 31K feet? 99-10-6 --- At Sportsman's Guide- the stockyard's across the street are right out of an animal right's protest film, or that one poem about Chicago. 99-10-7 --- Went to the Mall of America and rode the (mild) rollercoaster there. Had dinner on the company's dime at Planet Hollywood and saw Dan Akroyd's Ghostbuster pack w/ gun. Huzzah! 99-10-7 --- Also, the Minnesota Vikings store had some Robert Smith (of Euclid High School) ware. 99-10-7 --- "What's your favorite instrument? You play them all." "Mmm. Stewardesses!" --The Electryfying Mojo and Prince --- 1. We are not heroes. 2. Our time here is brief. 3. Our untapped potential is limited: We are doing about the best we can do. 4. Personal charm doesn't count for much. 5. There's no point in looking back. It doesn't help. --Jimmy (Big Boy) Valente as told to Garrison Keillor --- "From each according to his abilities, to each according to his needs-- they didn't go for it, eh?" "The people have more opiates than they know what to do with." --Jimmy (Big Boy) Valente and Lenin (as told to Garrison Keillor) --- Walking back from Alewife- years from now I'll remember this dark path. 99-10-9 --- "American Beauty" talks about the theme of joylessness- I think I'm pretty good at avoiding that, and so is Mo. Previous girlfriends less so. 99-10-10 --- "You put the uck back in suck" "Yeah, well you put the cunt back into stupid cunt[-ass] bitch" 99-10-11 --- "Exceptional my ass!" -Something About Mary, on "special" population --- Looked up "Derek Doyle Superman" on dejanews. Besides learning that Rebekah's beau has refered to himself as "The Surfer", I came to the realisation that his fascination with Superman seems to come from a desire for pure absolutes in his heroes, something I find rather destructive. 99-10-13 --- I'm seriously thinking about seeing if my dad's companion Tracy would consent to a taped conversation about my dad. I'd be willing to drive out to upstate New York- hmm, maybe on the way to Syracuse? 99-10-13 --- kisrael.com is on the air, let the introspection begin! 99-10-15 --- Walking the tufts campus at night, for an sQ parents/alums mini-concert. Nostalgia. Concern for the slipping of Tufts' reputation. sQ injokes: the meta injoke "mueller hall", reeling it in. 99-10-15 --- Making the equivalent of an "ultimate mix tape" by creating mp3's from cd's. Half a gig so far. It's continuing my mission to distill the clutter and information of my life. 99-10-17 |