| KHftCEA 2000-04.3 April |
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KHftCEA 2000-04.3 April
"Death is the lot of us all, and the only way that the human race has ever conquered death is by treatingit with contempt. By living every golden minute as if one had all Eternity..." --Robert A. Heinlein --- "Justify your existance. And the judge shall be.. Yourself." "Oh, smeg." --Red Dwarf --- Agnostic: I don't know whether there is a God. Militant Agnostic: AND NEITHER DO YOU! --Phil Foglio --- "As an adolescent I aspired to lasting fame, I craved factual certainty, and I thirsted for a meaningful vision of human life -- so I became a scientist. This is like becoming an archbishop so you can meet girls." --M. Cartmill --- "My stomach says no but my sick carny sense of humor says yes..." --Mr. Wick (The Drew Carey Show) --- What is it that makes a complete stranger dive into an icy river to try to save a solid-gold baby? Maybe we'll never know. --Jack Handey, "Deep Thoughts" --- That "solid-gold baby" quote comes to mind frequently these days (even though I've never liked it all that much)- too often I'll see a commercial that will seem "mysteriously sexy" and I'll wonder what that sensual appeal could be... more often than not it has to do with nubile young things gyrating in dance or just being their shapely selves-- 'gee I wonder what it could be.' (In my defense, I do find casual, 'real-life-like' sexuality to be much more appealing than sex in a lingerie and leather 'frame'.) There's also that 'Just What Is It That Makes Today's Homes So Different, So Appealing?' piece of modern art... 00-4-28 --- So I've been fretting much about mortality and lifemeaning. Dylan sees it as a form of "rich man's disease', worry what comes from a life of not having day to day errata to worry about. Still, I thinking that thinking about my limits in lifetime- as scary and sad as it can be- is ultimately a rewarding activity. Better to have a count of days and weeks now, as a young adult, than be surprised by the twilight. Also, I have a hope that I can start treating the days that have passed as things of current value, not things merely lost. The Palm helps with that as well. 00-4-28 --- Memes from Dennet's "Conciousness Explained" are in my head- this model of conciousness as a turmoil of impressions and subprocesses is evocative. How I can listen to Dan's Bach and both hear and not hear it... I was reluctant to give up the idea of my internal monologue as my 'self', but the idea of that inner voice evolving as a way to take advantage of the mental tools for primitive communication we developed makes sense- language as a (mere?) powerful thought framework... 00-4-28 --- |