| KHftCEA 2000-08.3 August |
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KHftCEA 2000-08.3 August
The greatest disloyalty one can offer to great pioneers is to refuse to move an inch from where they stood. --Slashdot Quote --- Socrates said that "The trees in the countryside can teach me nothing"-- so at least my feelings for nature have philisophical-hisorical precedent! 00-8-29 --- Emailed with Rebekah yesterday. She gave the go ahead for publishing the K+R archive, though I might have to change her name in it (since some of the emails don't just refer to her as an initial.) She mentioned being worried she was reobsessing with Wes- reassuring to understand she has her own shadow casting relationships, disappointing to know that it's not me. 00-8-31 --- Got my car in for its 40K checkup. Wonder how long it will last? 00-8-31 --- My latest mortality thoughts: I've reached a kind of cheerful nihilism. Nothing really matters. The dreamless sleep loses its bite. Even if cryo was a better bet, it would only sort of matter. If I die today, I would have had a complete life in which I've loved, been loved, observed, and created. And another observation about time: there's the phenomenon where no matter how far in the future something seems, you reach it eventually. And thanks to our haphazard memory, it seems a shorter wait than it was. So life is long, longer than we're aware of. 00-8-31 --- |