November 9, 2022

Your problem is that your inner child is a bit too outer.
My then-girlfriend K a long while back.
Back then I kinda took that as a compliment, though it was only sort of meant as one. But I like to think it means I have kept up my senses of whimsy and wonder, and am not so worried about gravitas and mature dignity.

But it's interesting in the context of my "inner classroom" model that is sounding more true to me these days, with the emotional students actually much less independently noisy rambunctious relative to some other folks' "classrooms".
My estranged debate partner EB once hesitated to call me "Puer aeternus", the eternal adolescent, because he assumed it would be as damning an insult for me in my worldview as it was for his. But looking at the wikipage for it... "the puer typically leads a "provisional life" due to the fear of being caught in a situation from which it might not be possible to escape. He or she covets independence and freedom, opposes boundaries and limits, and tends to find any restriction intolerable."

in some ways that's the opposite of me - I tend to be very dedicated to partners and groups - but I don't want to be on the hook for big decisions, especially those that might impact the welfare or well-being of others. Though I admit, the end result presents similarly.